Today 27th June 2011. My school reopened for term 3 after June Holiday. I was super happy meeting all my friends. We shared our activities and events during the past Holiday. I had the feeling that it had been very long I had not come to school. I missed everyone and everything , teachers , friends and my classroom.
This morning I had PE lesson. We took height and weight test . My weight is 58kg and 1.57m tall. What a disappointed. I have grown tall few cm only for the past few years. I think I maybe stop grown tall but gain weight everyday. However, it does not matter much as I accept who I am and how I look like. I am glad that I am a health person.
In second PE period , Mr Loh let us play badminton. I had a great game with my friends , especially I performed very well. See Sia and I team up and beat every other team. I felt very proud about myself. It had been very long time I did not play badminton but I still played impressively.
6pm , I thought I really could forget Xin Yun but I cannot. By the time I top up card, I received her msg "Ong Xa I miss you". My heart was supper pain like its was torn out many parts.
I have many problems and confides about Xin Yun. I feel very shameful comparing to her , I am just sec 5 and she is already poly year 2. Thus she is from a rich family , They went out having dinner with family members but why can I not share that happiness for her ? Why can I not accept the truth that we have this big gap? Looking at those photos , She turns more pretty and beautiful, I feel more worried that other guys shall grab her away. What can I do for this !!!??? I feel hopeless and helpless. I lost the confidence she would be with me in the future.
Tonight , She called me. Deeply in my heart , I feel very happy , I miss her very much! However , somehow I have nothing to say . Every sentence I said lead us to quarrel. Why !? What is wrong with me?
I wish you were a friend in my school . Everyday I could see you , talk to you , see your smile and flirt you. I miss you!!!
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