Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
Today I miss her so much , I took a look at her facebook , Wow! I found this song is great ^.^ It was similar to my feeling by the time I was listening. Lazy!!! the laziness takes over missing her . Despite lazy, I still tried my best completing homework.
This weekend would be horrible . Our teachers gave up mountain of Practice exercise. "Practice makes perfect" its true but Its not easy to do ok ! Especially English homework , she gave up amazingly so much, however, "You don't have to do everything but I would like to see you do as much as you could," she spoke nicely. That help a lot . At least I will not have that stressful doing those worksheet.
Today was a great day for me, This is the 1st time I could understand and confidently do SS exercise . Wow, I was willing to stay back after school for SS remedial thus extra lesson at 4pm . I wonder why I was willing to study such this subject. The reason is I scored full mark for a question by myself . I understood and knew what is the steps to do. Moreover, when I have consultation one to one with her, she guild me step by step. That help very well . Thank you , Madam Rozaina
Last but not least . You will see. I have not given up yet . I will do my best on studying , Even though you are studying higher level than me, I won't let your family look down own me. Even though next time we could be as husband and wide , as least you have a wonderful friend like me . I will always be there to help you and your family members ^.<
Love you very much Tan Xin Yun !
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
23 Days withouy Xin Yun
29th Jun 2011. This morning was very weird weather. Around the time 1130am , It was very hot sun outside but rain . We could feel the hot of water vapor. All the girls keep complaining noisily. What a girlish
Our class 5N1 majority really do not like Mr Tham who is our Physic teacher. "He has a irritating voice by using micro" , Dona said. It's true enough even I do feel it too. As the result , our class seem cannot corporate with him. He kept nagging, scolding and talking nonsense. We prefer Mr Cheng who have touch us for 2 years . His teaching style is much much impressive than others teacher different subject. Last year result , Physic is one of the top scored for our single student. We did very well for physic paper , comparing the latest Phy MYE paper , it is totally difference and opposite. Sadly , Physic teacher could not be replace. I wonder what would lead us to success.
Today is Wednesday. Yeah ! It's extremely great that we , graduating class, do not need to go for CCA after school. I could go home early and spend more time to rest , do homework of course. However , today I quarrel with my friend Lylen . Assembly was too lame that I slept half way. When I woke up , the show was over and every one were about to leave the hall . I took my bag and tried to stand up tiredly , I saw our class diary. I took it up and searched for Citi or Keny . However , I cannot find City and Keny was having meeting with the teacher. At that moment , I found Lylen who is our class Vice Chairman. I pass it to her but she acted cute and did take it from me . I repeat twice asking her to take but she did not. In frustrated and annoyed by her action , I release the diary drop on the floor and walk away , did not border about the book. After that , she msg me "you are so rude!" I knew its rude doing that to a girl but I was in bad mood every time I just woke up. My apologize to you dear friend.
I reached home around 3pm, but my friend Euwen asked me favor helping Math question . I met him and spent time teaching him until 6pm . tiredly , I took a short nap by the time I come back home . Sadly I woke up at ... 1130 pm . Its terrible and have to to spend time at late night to do homework and writing diary.
In the late night , in the dark room . I am sitting writing diary. I am always miss you Xin Yun . I wish you were with me , I miss your hug . I feel very tired and sleepy . I wish I could see your cute , sexy and beautiful happy smile :)
I love you Xin Yun
Our class 5N1 majority really do not like Mr Tham who is our Physic teacher. "He has a irritating voice by using micro" , Dona said. It's true enough even I do feel it too. As the result , our class seem cannot corporate with him. He kept nagging, scolding and talking nonsense. We prefer Mr Cheng who have touch us for 2 years . His teaching style is much much impressive than others teacher different subject. Last year result , Physic is one of the top scored for our single student. We did very well for physic paper , comparing the latest Phy MYE paper , it is totally difference and opposite. Sadly , Physic teacher could not be replace. I wonder what would lead us to success.
Today is Wednesday. Yeah ! It's extremely great that we , graduating class, do not need to go for CCA after school. I could go home early and spend more time to rest , do homework of course. However , today I quarrel with my friend Lylen . Assembly was too lame that I slept half way. When I woke up , the show was over and every one were about to leave the hall . I took my bag and tried to stand up tiredly , I saw our class diary. I took it up and searched for Citi or Keny . However , I cannot find City and Keny was having meeting with the teacher. At that moment , I found Lylen who is our class Vice Chairman. I pass it to her but she acted cute and did take it from me . I repeat twice asking her to take but she did not. In frustrated and annoyed by her action , I release the diary drop on the floor and walk away , did not border about the book. After that , she msg me "you are so rude!" I knew its rude doing that to a girl but I was in bad mood every time I just woke up. My apologize to you dear friend.
I reached home around 3pm, but my friend Euwen asked me favor helping Math question . I met him and spent time teaching him until 6pm . tiredly , I took a short nap by the time I come back home . Sadly I woke up at ... 1130 pm . Its terrible and have to to spend time at late night to do homework and writing diary.
In the late night , in the dark room . I am sitting writing diary. I am always miss you Xin Yun . I wish you were with me , I miss your hug . I feel very tired and sleepy . I wish I could see your cute , sexy and beautiful happy smile :)
I love you Xin Yun
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
22 days without Xin Yun
Today 28th June 2011, I woke up tiredly and my eyes nearly could not open. It's sure that I could fall in sleep again in few second. I used all my strength to control my lazy body brush teeth , change clothes and get ready going to school
Walking to school , I felt very hungry and strength-less . When I reached school , I took breakfast and water bottle, I feel much better. I meet friends and had great conversations as ever.
First two period was English subject. It was super bored and sleepy! She let us do a mock test ; "Write about your strength and weakness of your English." I believed that I did quite well, however, I missed Miss Ang , my previous English teacher because she is one of my favorite teacher . She is very kind and humor. Her teacher style is very impressive and interesting in every lesson. During her class , I had never feel sleepy before , either I did not dare to sleep or her lessons were too exciting.
Others lesson were still normal as usual. A Math today we learned new topic "Velocity". This is quite related to Physic topic but the questions are completely confusing. I hate reading and understand the phrase. Nevertheless , thank to Madam Sin had guided us clearly , I found this topic interesting :)
After school , I spend time doing homework and study with my classmates. Some of them spend time study POA with the teacher , Citi asked me help her Math . We had studied until 5pm and we went home.
I reached home around 5 30 plus , I took a short nap , I had a dream that I was having buffet with Xin Yun . When I wake up, my body was sweating due to too hot. I had forgot what had happened in the dream but it made me miss her more .
Xin Yun , I miss You
Walking to school , I felt very hungry and strength-less . When I reached school , I took breakfast and water bottle, I feel much better. I meet friends and had great conversations as ever.
First two period was English subject. It was super bored and sleepy! She let us do a mock test ; "Write about your strength and weakness of your English." I believed that I did quite well, however, I missed Miss Ang , my previous English teacher because she is one of my favorite teacher . She is very kind and humor. Her teacher style is very impressive and interesting in every lesson. During her class , I had never feel sleepy before , either I did not dare to sleep or her lessons were too exciting.
Others lesson were still normal as usual. A Math today we learned new topic "Velocity". This is quite related to Physic topic but the questions are completely confusing. I hate reading and understand the phrase. Nevertheless , thank to Madam Sin had guided us clearly , I found this topic interesting :)
After school , I spend time doing homework and study with my classmates. Some of them spend time study POA with the teacher , Citi asked me help her Math . We had studied until 5pm and we went home.
I reached home around 5 30 plus , I took a short nap , I had a dream that I was having buffet with Xin Yun . When I wake up, my body was sweating due to too hot. I had forgot what had happened in the dream but it made me miss her more .
Xin Yun , I miss You
Monday, June 27, 2011
21 days without Xin Yun
Today 27th June 2011. My school reopened for term 3 after June Holiday. I was super happy meeting all my friends. We shared our activities and events during the past Holiday. I had the feeling that it had been very long I had not come to school. I missed everyone and everything , teachers , friends and my classroom.
This morning I had PE lesson. We took height and weight test . My weight is 58kg and 1.57m tall. What a disappointed. I have grown tall few cm only for the past few years. I think I maybe stop grown tall but gain weight everyday. However, it does not matter much as I accept who I am and how I look like. I am glad that I am a health person.
In second PE period , Mr Loh let us play badminton. I had a great game with my friends , especially I performed very well. See Sia and I team up and beat every other team. I felt very proud about myself. It had been very long time I did not play badminton but I still played impressively.
6pm , I thought I really could forget Xin Yun but I cannot. By the time I top up card, I received her msg "Ong Xa I miss you". My heart was supper pain like its was torn out many parts.
I have many problems and confides about Xin Yun. I feel very shameful comparing to her , I am just sec 5 and she is already poly year 2. Thus she is from a rich family , They went out having dinner with family members but why can I not share that happiness for her ? Why can I not accept the truth that we have this big gap? Looking at those photos , She turns more pretty and beautiful, I feel more worried that other guys shall grab her away. What can I do for this !!!??? I feel hopeless and helpless. I lost the confidence she would be with me in the future.
Tonight , She called me. Deeply in my heart , I feel very happy , I miss her very much! However , somehow I have nothing to say . Every sentence I said lead us to quarrel. Why !? What is wrong with me?
I wish you were a friend in my school . Everyday I could see you , talk to you , see your smile and flirt you. I miss you!!!
This morning I had PE lesson. We took height and weight test . My weight is 58kg and 1.57m tall. What a disappointed. I have grown tall few cm only for the past few years. I think I maybe stop grown tall but gain weight everyday. However, it does not matter much as I accept who I am and how I look like. I am glad that I am a health person.
In second PE period , Mr Loh let us play badminton. I had a great game with my friends , especially I performed very well. See Sia and I team up and beat every other team. I felt very proud about myself. It had been very long time I did not play badminton but I still played impressively.
6pm , I thought I really could forget Xin Yun but I cannot. By the time I top up card, I received her msg "Ong Xa I miss you". My heart was supper pain like its was torn out many parts.
I have many problems and confides about Xin Yun. I feel very shameful comparing to her , I am just sec 5 and she is already poly year 2. Thus she is from a rich family , They went out having dinner with family members but why can I not share that happiness for her ? Why can I not accept the truth that we have this big gap? Looking at those photos , She turns more pretty and beautiful, I feel more worried that other guys shall grab her away. What can I do for this !!!??? I feel hopeless and helpless. I lost the confidence she would be with me in the future.
Tonight , She called me. Deeply in my heart , I feel very happy , I miss her very much! However , somehow I have nothing to say . Every sentence I said lead us to quarrel. Why !? What is wrong with me?
I wish you were a friend in my school . Everyday I could see you , talk to you , see your smile and flirt you. I miss you!!!
Sunday, June 26, 2011
20 days without Xin Yun
I had a wonderful yet horrible holiday in Vietnam , I flied back there on 6th June and came back on 26th June. During those days, I could spend more time with my family , my parents and my close relatives cousin. We had party and bought a 3 days tour to the beach . I think I could not said all every great memorable time with family in one post,however, not everyday is wonderful for me . I missed Xin Yun every second, everything I did, I wished I could share that happiness with you . I wished you were there.
20 days without you , I was like the fish out of water. I cried sometime at night but my dad was there , hugging me and said " When I was knowing your mom , we did not have mobile phone." That helps me clear very much . I felt much better I believe that one day , Xin Yun and I would be together even distance love.
Today, by the time I arrived Singapore , I called Xin Yun but she sounds very upset. She seem not welcome me much. I dont know what really happened to her, thus I have many conflict about her , either care or do not.
She seems has been used to the time and feeling without me , without sms me. I half very heartbreaking even though I am glad for her. I could lie my feeling that I still miss her very much . I wish I could hug her right away just few second. At the mean time , I have conflict that I don't want to trouble her any more.
Tonight , I online facebook, I took a look at her photo profile. What a cheerless ! There is a boy like her , he commented every photo of her and praise her pretty . Well ! I was very jealous ! My heart was very pain but I am helpless. What could I do . There is many guys who is better than me could care her better.
Xin Yun , Good night !
20 days without you , I was like the fish out of water. I cried sometime at night but my dad was there , hugging me and said " When I was knowing your mom , we did not have mobile phone." That helps me clear very much . I felt much better I believe that one day , Xin Yun and I would be together even distance love.
Today, by the time I arrived Singapore , I called Xin Yun but she sounds very upset. She seem not welcome me much. I dont know what really happened to her, thus I have many conflict about her , either care or do not.
She seems has been used to the time and feeling without me , without sms me. I half very heartbreaking even though I am glad for her. I could lie my feeling that I still miss her very much . I wish I could hug her right away just few second. At the mean time , I have conflict that I don't want to trouble her any more.
Tonight , I online facebook, I took a look at her photo profile. What a cheerless ! There is a boy like her , he commented every photo of her and praise her pretty . Well ! I was very jealous ! My heart was very pain but I am helpless. What could I do . There is many guys who is better than me could care her better.
Xin Yun , Good night !
I am starting to write diary
Well, like I say above, I started writing diary by today, 6th June 2011. The 1st reason is for improving my English skill and the other is that I want to noted down most of my feeling and expression what has happened everyday .
I had many confides that I had no one who could share with me. I was really quite stressful about those. But I am not blaming anyone. Its my fault that I am not type of people who really could easily say out all the emotional stuffs, however, human has their limited . I hope by writing diary would help me relax in peace :)
Actually , during the holiday time I was in Vietnam , I watched a movie that there is a couple . They had quarrel and broke up. The man was very stressful and he started to write diary. One day he had been passed away due to accidence, his ex girlfriend eventually read his blog spot and found that he still loves her very much and apologise that what he has done for her. She cried ...
I am learning his method . Lets see if it works ^.<
I had many confides that I had no one who could share with me. I was really quite stressful about those. But I am not blaming anyone. Its my fault that I am not type of people who really could easily say out all the emotional stuffs, however, human has their limited . I hope by writing diary would help me relax in peace :)
Actually , during the holiday time I was in Vietnam , I watched a movie that there is a couple . They had quarrel and broke up. The man was very stressful and he started to write diary. One day he had been passed away due to accidence, his ex girlfriend eventually read his blog spot and found that he still loves her very much and apologise that what he has done for her. She cried ...
I am learning his method . Lets see if it works ^.<
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